trying to resolve my 'blogger's block'

I find it really hard to write entries for here at the moment. I really want to, but I don’t know where to start or what to say. I keep typing half sentences and deleting them. I got a little way into a long and cathartic post but then lost energy for it halfway through.

The trouble is that mum was about the most avid reader of my blog that there is. She loved to read it, and actually she checked in just the day before her first stroke. So even writing about our everyday lives without going into anything else seems difficult – I am writing knowing that she will not be reading it.

I wish mum had kept a blog. I think she would have got there eventually, with her ‘puting’. It would be nice to read it now, to be able to remind myself of the things she would say and her perspective on life. Not to be.

This is what happens every time. I sit here at my computer with tears running down my face and a jumble of thoughts spinning round in my head. So I will update on the girls and us.

Caitlin

Had a great report from nursery – little superstar – and she is looking forward to starting school. Weather permitting, it is her sports day tomorrow, and we are going on the nursery trip to Hatton Country World on 14th July. Her ongoing constipation is not caused by an underlying problem but by her colon having become stretched, so it’s a case of continuing with the laxatives…..

Hannah

Has a check up at Birmingham on 24th July – details to follow on her blog. Her speech is great – several word sentences, and clear pronunciation – and as ever she is very physically active.

Holiday

We did enjoy our holiday, in its modified form. We will definitely be going back to Dawlish Warren for a third visit. The girls had excellent fun and particularly enjoyed the adventure playgrounds they encountered, and the swimming pool. I hope to post some photos soon….it always seems to be really time consuming, all my photos are such bloody big files I have to modify them somehow to post them anywhere.

Other news

Congratulations to my good friend Elly, her partner Mike and their son Arthur on the birth of their new baby Sylvan.

Most other things are wavering on the brink of disaster, but the house is fairly tidy.

My sister in law will be moving next door to us in just over a week! We should be a great support to each other and it will be especially good for the children to be able to play together. It is an exciting development and a very positive move for her family, as they are unhappy where they are living now.